Written or to write?

There is a very distinct difference between wanting to write, and actually wanting to have wrote. To write means you actually want to sit down and write things out no matter what. To want to wrote means you want to have written, not actually write. To be famous for writing, without writing. Does that make sense? It's something among those lines.

How does this come up with me? I was at work, it's my last day with no work so I decided
I shall write. What happens? I'm looking at the fresh blank screen of my computer and nothing. Nothing at all. Not a single thought comes to my mind, I haven't even started writing and I hit a road block. I just can't make myself do it, to actually put my ideas to paper/screen at all. I never realized but I'm in that category of wanting to have written. I need to push myself to write. Yes this blog helps me with writing out things but I want more. I want to write a fiction novel, a short story, anything that I can claim "yes I wrote that,"


Please writing creating spirits/gods/things help me! I just want to be able to put my ideas down without getting bored midpoint, losing track, and not being able to start. 


*Names have been changed

Dreams

I've been busy because of work. It's the last week before an important event and we're running around like chickens without our heads. Me? I'm done my work, I'm relaxing. Don't get me wrong, I still help out and do what I'm told, but you know.

This post though isn't about work though, it's about something better than that.

I've currently been reading Dreams Of Joy by Lisa see, like I said in my earlier posts. Although I'm almost finish, just about 100 pages left. Not too much. Because I've been reading this novel I looked up Lisa Sees' website and began reading, and because of her I got the best piece of advice "Write 1000 words a day"is essentially it. But I'm thinking, can you really do that?  Can you force yourself to write or is it a natural process for everyone? Maybe I should try to write a 1000 words a day though, considering I've been trying for what seems like years to write a novel, (I'm 20 so imagine!)

Oh I feel so busy though. I want to watch all the episodes of Inuyasha, read the books I want, finish a video game, and work. How do I do this?! I feel like I don't have enough time. I think once I'm done my 8 week work program I'm going to ... I have no idea... See I'm so lost!

Well somewhat I do have a plan. I plan to read before bed, like I always do, so that helps on the book thing. But what about the rest? Do I just.. dive in and do it until it's finished or do I pace it out? Ha... I like to pretend I'm good at organizing but terrible at time management. Oh woe.. And to think I'm in University! I should be used to these things. But I'm not, I miss the days of high school when everything was simple! Yeah that's right.. actually no, I don't want those days again! I'll figure something out.