Monday, July 25, 2011

Great Weekend

Hello all my readers. You must be wondering "WHY YOU NO POST?" So yes, I'll be explaining why I didn't post what seems like.. years.

First of all, at my work we had a great grand meeting that I had to help out with Thursday and Friday. So my usual time of posting at work, I was actually down some where else and doing WORK! Also on Thursday I had to pick up *Pat from the bus terminal since he came down to see me! That was a good time. I missed him so much, since I didn't see him for almost two months. I must say that is the longest time I ever went by without seeing him physically. That is saying something!

What else.. we went to see two concerts this weekend with the family. That helped a lot. *Pat told me "Before coming here, I had doubts, but holding you at the concerts made all the doubts go away." So sweet.. I like him so much! No, no love yet. That feeling is still... not there? It's only been four months. Give me a break.

The weekend was filled with so many things. So busy. Last night *Pat and I went to see the new Harry Potter. It was so sad..I felt like crying when they showed little Snape. He had it so rough! Even though I knew... ***********SPOILER ALERT.*********************** he dies, it still makes it so sad. it doesn't change the fact of anything. IT'S SAD.

Now, what is new and excting is I e-mailed my favourite author Lisa See. I hope she gives me a reply. That would be fantastic. I would die of happiness. Hah!

So now I must go do other things, and I am extremely tired today, I woke up at 6 to drive *Pat to the train station. Ah well. Life goes on!

*Names have been changed.

ps; if you see any spelling mistakes, ignore. I'm too tired to proof read.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

It came to me..

in  a dream! I was trying to sleep last night and I got the best novel idea, EVER. Well maybe not ever because I don't think I could ever beat novels like 1984 or Harry Potter when it comes to originality but still, I'm excited.

Also, *Pat is coming. To my house. TOMORROW. I'm so excited my readers! I haven't seen him in a long while. So I shall be taking perhaps a small leave of blogging until Monday. Since tomorrow is our great work office thing, and he's coming and all that fun stuff!

I also plan on going to go see Harry Potter this weekend. I hope it's good as the novel were!! If not.. well.. we'll see right?

Question, what's your favourite novel? Is it something new and modern or a good classic? Let me know! I need things to read lovelies!

*Names have been changed.



Ps: What should I write about in my blogs? Should I continue the mix of my life and interests with a touch of what's going on in the world? What do you think?

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Dreams

I've been busy because of work. It's the last week before an important event and we're running around like chickens without our heads. Me? I'm done my work, I'm relaxing. Don't get me wrong, I still help out and do what I'm told, but you know.

This post though isn't about work though, it's about something better than that.

I've currently been reading Dreams Of Joy by Lisa see, like I said in my earlier posts. Although I'm almost finish, just about 100 pages left. Not too much. Because I've been reading this novel I looked up Lisa Sees' website and began reading, and because of her I got the best piece of advice "Write 1000 words a day"is essentially it. But I'm thinking, can you really do that?  Can you force yourself to write or is it a natural process for everyone? Maybe I should try to write a 1000 words a day though, considering I've been trying for what seems like years to write a novel, (I'm 20 so imagine!)

Oh I feel so busy though. I want to watch all the episodes of Inuyasha, read the books I want, finish a video game, and work. How do I do this?! I feel like I don't have enough time. I think once I'm done my 8 week work program I'm going to ... I have no idea... See I'm so lost!

Well somewhat I do have a plan. I plan to read before bed, like I always do, so that helps on the book thing. But what about the rest? Do I just.. dive in and do it until it's finished or do I pace it out? Ha... I like to pretend I'm good at organizing but terrible at time management. Oh woe.. And to think I'm in University! I should be used to these things. But I'm not, I miss the days of high school when everything was simple! Yeah that's right.. actually no, I don't want those days again! I'll figure something out.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Child hood love

Today while I was reading my new book, Dreams of Joy By Lisa See and I got the strangest urge from this! Trust me it's really random actually. From reading this novel, which is great by the way, I wanted to start watching the anime Inuyasha again! It was so strange. I've watched it when it first aired on YTV (Canada). I have a goal to attempt to finish the series this summer or by October! Which is a very... high goal considering the anime has 167 episodes, four movies, and 26 end episodes. I'll do it though!

On another note *Pat might come down this Thursday! I really hope he does! <3

So summer has been okay so far. It's been raining most of the time which sucks. Today was a nice day though so I went out. I forgot to put sunscreen, BUT! I was mostly in the shade all day. I don't go tanning since I don't want my skin to become leather. So tomorrow if I decide to go out again, I'll for def put sun screen on. ;)

Also, I've noticed that I had page views from international areas, thank you! I hope you can understand since I mostly speak in slang.

Anyway, it's late and I'm tired from all the outdoors!

*Names have been changed.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Obsession!

Hello everyone! Everyone has an obsession or something they love. It can be something simple as dogs, to the crazy obsession as stalking someone down. Either way you tickle your fancy right? Well today I was thinking what I could write about, and decided to share one of my obsessions. And that would be this website List Verse. I love this site! When ever I'm not too busy at work, or need a simple break from life, I click on this website and read. I love it because it's simple, to the point. Entertaining but that's just a give away. Some of my favourite list they have include:

Top 10 Truly Badass Saints

Just to name a few. What do you think about this site? Nay or Yay? Give me your reactions!
Yours truly,

Monday, July 11, 2011

The Pros and Cons of Relationships

Let's talk about it, relationships. And let's face it, relationships are one of the hardest thing to do in life.  We wish for the perfect person for us. We constantly look for that special someone, and what happens? It some how screws up and kicks us while we're down. But why? Why do we look for a companion?  And on the discussion of relationships what do you think of long distance relationships (LDR)? I've been thinking about them a lot lately because of my boyfriend. And I've created a list to help me decide what I think of them:

LDR vs Local!

When it comes to... Alone time
LDR 
Pro: When it comes to alone time, you never have to worry about hurting your partners feelings! No "I'll make it up to you if you let me go out..." You are your own master!
Con: In a long distance relationship you are constantly alone without your partner. Sure you have your friends you can go out with but theres no "Let's stay in and watch a movie together on the couch!" night. If you want to do that, you're alone.

Local
Pro: You can ask for alone time knowing later on you can just go see your partner. No worrying about if  you'll have to wait up and talk to them on the phone. Just text, go and done.
Con: Sometimes it can be hard to get alone time without hurting the other persons feelings. How do you tell someone "No go home and sleep in your own bed for once!" without sounding rude?



When it comes to... Gift giving
LDR
Pro: Scenario: You're busy at work, school, friends whatever, and you can't make it to the store to buy a gift for your special one. No problem! You can blame it on the postal strike delaying things! (This only works if you're in Canada!) "Yeah Hunny.. I mailed your gift last week.. it never got there? Uh strange!"
Con: First of all you're limited in a way in what you can buy. If you want to get them a big present, you might have a problem. Theres a size limit at times, and I don't know about you guys, but I would rather save that 70 dollar postal delivery fee.
Bonus: The thing with LDR we tend to think of the gifts we do get as more special, since it took longer to receive and such.  Maybe it did take a month to arrive, but the wait was worth it.


Local
Pro: You can have more fun with gifts. Perhaps its their birthday, not only can you get them a gift but you can take them out to a restaurant. Or plan a special evening together. The possibilities are endless!
Con: Since you guys do live locally maybe the other person is expecting to be treated better. Maybe they aren't just expected a gift but multiple and a dinner/movie! You just never know with that! (That's when you need to talk to your partner and see what they want to do for that special occasion.)
Bonus: Either LDR or local relationships you can always surprise the person with a gift!


When it comes to... 'Deep meaningful Conversation"
Before we can go any further let me explain what deep meaningful conversation really is! This is  a code my boyfriend *Pat and I use for... sex.

LDR
Pro: Well if you have a low sex drive to begin with LDR's are perfect for you! You two don't do it as often or at all.  On the other hand if you need that conversation with them that's when you can try new things, such as using the phone or webcam. Theres also sites that offer you two the naughtiness you need, perhaps try second life (http://secondlife.com/)  or something? So you two can go out on a 'date' together (well your avatars!) before you score the big O.
Con: Can't see each other when the conversation gets intense!! All you can really do is sit it out, or rub it out yourself. So exciting right?

Local:
Pro:  No need to wait to get it out of your systems! You see each other and decide the moment is right and you jump right into it! (With protection of course!) when local you can also try new things you can't do alone or in a LDR, such as bondage. Can't tie yourself up to the bed!
Con: You can reach the bottom of the cookie jar only to pull out a stale cookie. Happens to the best of us. Maybe our soup just isn't spicy anymore, and we need a new recipe. Times like these can be hard to snap out of of.  You've ate the same sandwich too many time to be enjoyable.

When it comes to... Communicating.
Note: There is a difference between talking and communicating. Talking involves a simple "Hey, how are you?" Compared to "How are you feeling and let me listen to your problems." Understand?


LDR 
Pro: When in a long distance relationship all you have is talking and communicating. You aren't there to understand what's going on with the other persons life. You can't just know what's going on, unless the person tells you. This is where good communication comes in place, since it's a LDR you have to make it work even if that's sending a text saying you'll be away all day. Communication is the key!
Con: It's rough, sometimes at the end of the day all you want to do is crawl into bed and say 'screw it, i'll call them tomorrow' this is where the communication can break down, jut like in any relationship. It's just harder when it's an LDR since that's all you have to rely on.

Local
Pro: Since it's local the people involved can talk and hang out whenever they want. It doesn't just depend on talking with each other, you can sit there in comfortable silence and know exactly what the other person is thinking.
Con: Since it's local and such sometimes the people involved can forget that theres more to a relationship than the physical. Not just sex but holding hands and such. Yes physical is important but so is the emotional part of a relationship!

Well looking at that you can tell theres issues with both types of relationships. These are just my personal views, maybe you don't agree to them and that's fine. I just think that any relationship there's going to be trouble, everyone fights. You're going to hurt no matter who you're with in a relationship, you just have to find the one you can hurt for and make it worth wild.

Well that's pretty much what I think. I think it's important to listen to what your LDR or local relationship wants! It's like a plant, don't forget to nurture it.

*Names have been changed.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Rant?

Hello every single reader. I've been thinking, it sucks to be a woman at times. First of all you bleed, which makes you emotional. You have hormones that go crazy, which makes you emotional. Everything makes you cry at times!! It sucks. It also doesn't help that I'm on birth control and anti depressants that no longer work for me. Which makes my hormones and chemicals in my brain even more crazy which makes me cry for no reason.

Also we tend to over analyze things. Which can just hurt us in the end. I just want to go with the flow, not have little arguments with *Pat. I feel bad for him, he doesn't need a girlfriend that every other week gets angry/cry and such.  I feel terrible. I believe I need therapy to help myself out, and perhaps a new prescription.  I know this isn't me when I cry for no reason or get upset over little things. I just want to be my happy self again. Without all the tears. I just want to be the good girlfriend like I was when he and I were at university. Not him doubting our relationship because of me and the distance also. I just want to make it up to him some how.

*Names have been changed.

Friday, July 8, 2011

Excitement and sick.

Hello my single reader out there. Or perhaps my two readers. Either way hey!

Let us start with the bad and work our way to the good. The first terrible news is that my father has been in the hospital for a week now. He was weak and such, and the doctors didn't know what was wrong with him. Thankfully he's doing better now. They said he might be able to come home tonight, I doubt this but hey we can dream!

The second is that I'm extremely tired, and have been all week due to the lack of sleep. You don't know how excited I am to finish work at 12 and go home and take a nap. It's my high point of Friday night. Yeah I'm interesting!

Also I've experienced what my eye doctor told me is an optical migraine yesterday.  I was at work reading online for work, and out of no where, I was having blurred vision, followed by odd 'floaters' in my vision. Eventually I also had what seemed like flashing lights on the side of my vision. I freaked out and went to my eye doctor, well my sister told me to who in fact drove me because I couldn't. He told me it was an optical migraine and that an episode of lights and such should only be around for 10-14 minutes, and that half an hour like I had was a longer episode. He also said the pain will follow. Little did he know I felt like throwing up on his floor with severe headache when he said that. Haaaaa. Well thankfully I was able to sleep it off, but my god, I hope that sort of migraine never happens again, it was so scary and was the worse pain ever. I felt dizzy, sick to my stomach and the whole deal.

Please, I hope it doesn't happen again. Please brain don't do it again. hahah.

Now on to the good news!

I recently wanted to Game X* and traded in/sold some of my old videos game. I got 37 dollars worth of store credit which is great. I bought Eternal Sonata, I'm not too sure how it plays since I recently bought it and will only start it tonight. And also two final fantasy music CDS which include the Final Fantasy X -2 piano soundtrack. Which I must say the music in that game is better than the actual game! And since my ex took, or I left it at his apartment, a new link cable for my gameboy colour.  I know right?! Now I can finally transfer/trade over my old pokemon to my newer games, if I can! Excitement~

Another great development is that Pat* took time off to come see me in two weeks! I hope he can come, it's not the time or money that's going to be difficult is finding a way down, since the buses hate us and theres not train stations around him. We'll find something. I'll keep you posted on the adventures of Pat* and his hopefully, wonderful time here!

Now I should really be getting back to work now so until next time!

*Names have been changed.


ps; Am I weird for liking certain keyboard to type? At work I'm currently using a macbook pro and I'm in love with the keyboard. I feel inspired to write, but at home I don't want to write on my keyboard, connection or just mind games?

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Long Weekend

It's been a while since I updated you guys on anything. That is because I took the weekend to myself. Which means relaxing! Since we worked on Canada day we got Monday off. That was great since I needed all that extra sleep. You can't see it but right now I just want to curl under my desk and sleep. Tempting if no one could see me.

I'm also debating if I want to quit work or not. I understand that is only an 8 week program and I'm 4 weeks in but I really do not like it. I looked over my work for today and I realized that I only have a few things to do for today. Which will take me less than the morning to do. I know it's easy and I get money but at the same time I just want to be home, enjoying my summer vacation and not worrying while I'm at work.

There has been things going on with my Dad's health lately, that is all I'm going to tell.

On the brighter side of life Pat* told me he might be able to come down at the end of July!! That is amazing! I hope he comes since the last time I seen him was.. um.. The 4th of June I believe? I'm not entirely sure don't quote me on that. I believe it was then. Ah well! I could have went down on my long weekend but in his mood of being angry at something he told me not to come down, which he regretted saying later! Poor guy.

Ah well, might as well get back to work, I ended up killing about five minutes with this post! Better than nothing!

*Names have been changed.